Peonies in June


At three o'clock in the morning on December 21st, the darkest day of the year, my perfect, vivacious six-month-old puppy died in her sleep.

I am still wading through the stark horror of being woken up out of a deep sleep in a dark room by the sounds of my sweet baby dog taking her last breaths. It is a nightmare I would not wish on anyone who loves dogs.


She died in my arms. For that I am grateful.

We still don't know why she died, and are hoping that the necropsy will provide some answers, but right now I am trying to remember Lula as she was when she was full of life.


A flash of lightning. A shooting star. Peonies in June. Beautiful and bright and gone much, much too quickly.

Lula was everything I ever wanted in a dog. Whip-smart and stunningly gorgeous and clever and funny and sweet. Her small body was so full of joy that it burst out of her every second of the day. Everything was exciting for her, everything was fascinating. She was my farm dog, my future running buddy. She was wonderful in every way.


I will meet you on the other side, my dear girl.

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  1. I am so sorry. I hope you get the answers you need from the necropsy. She was stunning.

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  2. Oh, I just yelled NO out loud, involuntarily. I am so, so sorry. I can't even imagine. Much love to you and your family. <3

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  3. Omg Alli I’m so so so sorry ! Ugh that’s heartbreaking - all the more so for being so unexpected and nonsensical. Sending you all the hugs, bc there aren’t any words :( <3

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  4. That is so awful! My heart breaks for you! sending you lots of love and comfort. It sucks losing them when they are so young. :(

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  5. This was, and is, so heartbreaking. So many hugs to you.

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  6. Oh I am so very sorry. How heartbreaking. (((Hugs)))

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  7. Awww, no, Alli I am so sorry, tears & hugs for you. There is never a "good" way to lose anything, but having lost a beloved young cat to a sudden seizure (which I later surmised was most likely a thrown blood clot from cardiomyopathy, he did have a heart murmur), watching it right there in front of you is frightening & devastating. All you can do is hold them close & be there. That's all any of us can for every creature we love. <3

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  8. I'm so sorry Allison - so many hugs :(

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  9. I am so so sorry! Lots of hugs and comforting prayers to you.

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  10. I’m so sorry Alli. Sending so many hugs <3

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  11. I'm so SO sorry to hear this. Hugs to you and the family.

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